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Loveless

clenole:

People love you

So long

As they never know you.

Hold them

At arms length

And they think the world

Revolves around your every shit.

Let them in,

See what happens.

You love them back

And they hold the cards.

They can fuck you

However they please.

4/27/13 

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Purpled

clenole:

Violent

You say,

But I’m not that clever

As we both know.

I haven’t the strength

For any crisis

Let alone my own.

Violet

I say,

The mere edges,

Smears really,

Of what it means

To make my own

Dance on the page.

4/25/13

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Second Sister

clenole:

She’s hard to love

And I envy her.

Her witchy smile,

Effortlessly narcissistic,

Comic to the point of pain

A pain she never

Seems to feel

Since I’m not sure

She feels at all.

She is even,

Hidden hearted,

Second born.

Pent up with what skipped

The odd first born. 

4/24/13

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clenole:

When you were very small,

I held you on my knee

And bounced you

Thought teary nights,

The child I may never have,

But in some ways

Did nine years ago.

I was enthralled

By the spot

Where your baby hair

Just started to curl

On the back of your neck,

I liked to brush

My…

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Future

clenole:

Hush now,

I’m interrupting

Your interruption

That interrupted

My thought

Of how Future Me

Will never be achieved

Because life is nothing but

A serious of Now Mes.

I don’t exist

In future tense,

But I’ll leave a picture

Pointing south

Of an arrow

Outside the police station,

But I’ll take the pen

To sign a lease

On an Isla cottage,

Future tense.

4/21/13 

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Poet Today

clenole:

L.A. tastes

His Europe tongue

And I know it’s him

By the wicked smile

But his eyes

Can’t make me love

The way his words

Make me come

4/23/13

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Heartless Empowered

clenole:

I am bitter

Like overly strong

Black, black coffee.

I am cold

Like the February winds

I was born in.

I am cruel.

I breathe life

Into words

Designed to stab.

But I know these three

Before all others.

These traits are my weapon first,

They just agree.

4/20/13 

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clenole:

You told me shyly you think I’m beautiful. You were the first time I snuck out of my house, the first time I stayed up until three with a stranger. I laughed when you asked for a kiss, just a small one on my sunburned cheek.

We still talk now and then, but it’s different. I wrote you letters…

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Trophy Girl

clenole:

“I love you”

he whispers

as his eyes travel

over the glowing blue screen.

Not me, no,

Affection not mine.

He means it that way

But his love is reserved

For mythical characters

In cyber land.

I don’t want to bother him

But, Christ,

Stop petting my head

Like I’m the fluffy white cat

Perched on the arm of his

Desk chair throne.  

4/26/13

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A Possession

clenole:

You once touched me

With sweet smiles

And sweeter words,

Held me close

When we shared a bed,

But now we’re banished

To different sides

And I’m afraid

You’ll put me

Back on the shelf

With your gilded books,

“Nice things,” you said,

“I like having nice things.”

4/17/13

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Cento

clenole:

Melding words

Works and whims,

Other’s thoughts

To make my own.

War to love,

Sex to murder,

Nothing more than letters

Until I have my way.

4/16/13

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Sunshine

clenole:

I feel the buzz

In the pulse

Of my finger tips

As the sun dries me out,

Saps me of my drive

And rebellion,

Care and compassion,

Everything

That almost made me.

4/15/13

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Queen of Hearts

clenole:

I’ll love you big

And I’ll love you grand

In word and show,

Bullshit touches

And soft words.

I’ll love you lonely

In the smallest ways.

Those moments

When you just happen

To miss me most,

You’ll realize the strength

Of the hand

You’ve dealt me.

4/14/13

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clenole:

It was the sort of late summer night where I’d sweat no matter how cranked the AC was or how naked I got. I felt a little better when I realized I was more restless than hot. Well, “felt better” isn’t right. Refocused. It was a different discomfort. I put on the shredded, almost white shorts…

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To Sleeper From Awake

clenole:

I breathe in deep,

One two three four

And you snore softly

Out one two half,

And I try to dodge

Your out to my in

But I’m wrapped tight

And can’t escape.

4/12/13